This weekend I had a surprise fishing trip with my father-in-law in the mountains of Oregon this weekend. It was a delightful and yet terrifying trip. I was totally out of my element this weekend trout fishing with the "guys". But I held my own and caught two rainbow trout and even filleted them myself.
I just weighed myself and its the blah 255 today. The hardest part about beginning anything is actually starting. I will admit it, I am afraid to start and just fail again, this time my failure isn't just myself, but it effects my wife, kid, my heart, and people in my sphere of influence.
These last couple of days I have been trying to come to grips with my fears and insecurity, and it feels like for every pound that I am overweight I have something attached to the weight.
Being overweight is effecting my breathing, I am getting winded much easier and stamina is almost non-existent. My joints in my knees and ankles are starting to hurt, I understand now why people who are overweight or obese have a cascading effect of health issues. I am creating a "safety" bubble that is dangerous, unfurling, and robbing me of my life.
I am allowing myself to be filled with mindsets that are not from my Heavenly father and I am not living the life that I am called to live. I am afraid to verbalize these fears to my wife and friends. Even though I know that they are completely on my side, something is telling me otherwise. It is interesting how often I will listen, believe and accept lies in my own life, but I won't tolerate the lies in other people's lives.
I need breakthrough in my life, this is getting to mission critical level.
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